“Lo ngga pernah cerita..”

N: Let’s have fun talk! Tell me stories and some gossip as well.

P:  We want to hear your story.
N: Me? What to tell? Didn’t I share a lot?
P: Anything. I was the one who shared a lot without hearing even a single story from you;  your problems, or your past stories?
T: Don’t you have any problems, eh?
N: I do have some. What’s bad about not seeing them as ones?

It was silence after that. That was not the first time that friends asked me for deep stories. It seemed like I shared trivial matters only; funny things and good news, not the sad ones, the painful ones, or the serious ones. I was not doing that intentionally, friends. :) I just didn’t realize that it’s the way I am; being silent if something comes bothering. Sounds introvert, huh? But hey, I don’t think I really am.

I am a pretty good listener. A nice-story teller. A phlegmatic – sanguine person. A dreamy idealist. A kind of person saying “Have I told you this?” repeatedly, a lot.  A funny-but-complicated one, instead.

It’s true that I often don’t see problems as the way problems are. I treat them not-so-well; ignoring their presence – running? No, that’s not it.

I just don’t know. Wakaranai!

Too much that I don’t know.

Somehow I just remembered a time in highschool, when I was thinking that sometimes, some friends are destined to bring you pain. Here is an sms from an important friend claiming herself as a fan of mine.

“Lo hebat. Lo bisa ngelewatin itu semua, bahkan sendirian. Aku tau kok. My idol tuh hebat. My idol kuat. Aku sayang kamu, Ji. Kamu wonder woman sih. Hehe..”

You are so sweet, but I’m not a wonder woman! Nor the pathetic one neither :x

If you read this post, I’m gonna say this while giving you a very best smile of mine: sorry for not telling anything until I finally could overcome that feeling and laugh freely. Sorry for not letting you be there when I was crying. At that time, any single story spoken will make me myself buried more and more. And I know, noone of you guys wanted to keep myself buried, right?


AHEM!!!

Ah, anyway, this is the result of this personality quiz.

Your personality type: "Dreamy Idealist"

Quiet, reflective and idealistic. Interested in serving humanity. Well-developed value system, which they strive to live in accordance with. Extremely loyal. Adaptable and laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened. Usually talented writers. Mentally quick and able to see possibilities. Interested in understanding and helping people.

Careers that could fit you include:

Writers, artists, counselors, social workers, English teachers, fine arts teachers, child care workers, clergy, missionaries, psychologists, psychiatrists, scientists, political activists, editors, education consultants, journalists, religious educators, social scientists.

What do you think? :D

~Na, na, na! Say it! Does this post make me look mysterious? Indeed! :D *kepedean*